I don't know how I feel right now

I don't know what to feel. Because of the painkillers [I think] I felt completely hyper today, so much energy that I needed to create, create and be busy!!!!!!! I had nearly finished the treatment plans and done an hour's work earlier. I don't know what I did wrong but somehow I saved the 4 new pages as the document instead of all 77 pages. What is worse I also backed it up to my external HD this way. I have now lost what I have been working on the last 6 weeks in one go. [I have the rough draft so the work is not gone that bleep.] But I had put things in my own words, organised it etc so it looked perfect. Yeah I know.

I am devestated. And before saturday I would only be devastated. But at the studyday it came up that i over prepare. So right now I am not sure what I will do.

Take a deep breath and start over and get completely stressed as I will never make my deadline of the 15th of december.

Reorganize what I have a little bit but not do all the work again.

Leave it like this. GASP!!!!!!

Not sure. Maybe this is a sign from above to stop organizing and start doing. The gods funny way of showing me what is good for me. Thanks a lot!

Comments

mika said…
Geez... I think i'd be kicking the puter out the window if it was me LOL But yeah, maybe it IS a sign from on high that you're doing a bit too much. Maybe compromise and do half as much as you had before. Also sometimes just doing something, even if you don't have it anymore, firms things in your mind and makes them more readily accessible to your memory. IF your memory works, like mine doesn't LOL HUGS!!!
25 November 2008 at 02:28
gawain said…
That is true it did help me see things more clearly and I think I will go for the middle way. Just organise the notes a little bit. But try not to over organize. Try not to stick to a rigid scedule this month, have some fun and start seeing clients in January!!!!

i am not allowed to plan and structure this weekend LOL except get home in time for the appointment on monday.
25 November 2008 at 08:48
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