world of pain + rambling
Yesterday was not a good day painwise. I am still in a lot of trouble over the dentist visit. Yesterday was really bad, I could barely hold anything and could not write at all. Not good timing on a study day and I started there by dropping my tea cup breaking it in pieces and crying about it. Pfffffff. Well I went home early because I was doped on painkilles and they were not doing much good anymore.
Had another good cry at home and feeling unbalanced and sorry for myself. I did not fee
l focussed enough to grab a good book so selected a weepy movie. Braveheart! luckily I can still watch it and enjoy it despite not liking Mel Gibson much anymore for his views. Usually when this happens to me with an actor I cannot watch the movies anymore either. So I am glad I can still see this one as it is a good movie. Not historically correct at all, William Wallace did not look like a pict and the relationship in the movie does not do justice to Robert the Bruce. I do love the depiction of Edward II, a bastard if ever there was one. He did a lot of damage in Scotland but he was even more cruel to the welsh. The imagine of him keeping the sons of Daffydd in a cage for the rest of their natural life has never left me. Read Sharon Penman's book to find out what he did in Wales. Nobody wrote about it better.
Woke up at three this morning with my jawmuscles killing me. Not being able to get back to sleep got my Ipod to listen to some music while another round of painkillers was trying to do it's work. My mind was full and not in a good place, yet another bout of crying and admitting to myself that it is okay to feel weak, not having to push myself when I am not feeling well and asking for help more. Even asking others to get tea for me yesterday in class is difficult for me. I have to start doing that more, for me! For nobody else. To get over the old feeling that people would deny me and find me needy. That scared child has grown up and can claim her place in the world. Yeah for me!
Listening to my favorite music I came to John Barry's score for Lion in Winter, the song Eleanor's arrival at Chinon. If you ever get a chance to see this mo
vie, do! There are two versions, watch the old one with Peter O'Toole as Henry I I and Katherine Hepburn as Eleanor. Here you have the original disfunctional family. But what a woman to admire. Duchess of Acquitane in her own right she married the king of France and had two children with him. They divorced and she married the duke of Normandy many years her junior. Henry Plantaganet took the english throne on king stephen's death. He was the s
on of a strong mother as well. His mother Maud fought Stephen for the crown but then England was not read for a queen yet. Eleanor gave him many sons of which three would become king. Henry was co-ruler with his father but died young. Richard would only rule 10 years and not spend much of it in England. John, well John ruled for a while and was not so bad a king as many people think. But he was a plantaganet, ruthless. He as also Edward's grandfather. Oh if you decide to watch Lion in wint
er. Watch Becket first. Peter O'Toole plays the same role, Henry. But this movie is about Henry's relationship with his cancelor and later archbishop of Canterbury, Thomas Becket. Another fascinating story and a fascinating man, played very well by Richard Burton. It is finally out on DVD. This afternoon I am prob going to watch either Becket or Lion in Winter. or something completely different I am going to let my mood decide. Not too much planning. :)
Oh before going to sleep I did read some yesterday evening. Finished Keri Arthur and my inner jury is still out on it. I did like the story and kept reading but the characters did not completely grab me and that is what I like in a book. The story was good and fastpaced and more or less open-ended. So I think I will keep going, at least one more book. Sometimes a series only really grabs me at the second book. Like Kresley Cole and I am starting the third one of that series this afternoon or evening.
Had another good cry at home and feeling unbalanced and sorry for myself. I did not fee
l focussed enough to grab a good book so selected a weepy movie. Braveheart! luckily I can still watch it and enjoy it despite not liking Mel Gibson much anymore for his views. Usually when this happens to me with an actor I cannot watch the movies anymore either. So I am glad I can still see this one as it is a good movie. Not historically correct at all, William Wallace did not look like a pict and the relationship in the movie does not do justice to Robert the Bruce. I do love the depiction of Edward II, a bastard if ever there was one. He did a lot of damage in Scotland but he was even more cruel to the welsh. The imagine of him keeping the sons of Daffydd in a cage for the rest of their natural life has never left me. Read Sharon Penman's book to find out what he did in Wales. Nobody wrote about it better.Woke up at three this morning with my jawmuscles killing me. Not being able to get back to sleep got my Ipod to listen to some music while another round of painkillers was trying to do it's work. My mind was full and not in a good place, yet another bout of crying and admitting to myself that it is okay to feel weak, not having to push myself when I am not feeling well and asking for help more. Even asking others to get tea for me yesterday in class is difficult for me. I have to start doing that more, for me! For nobody else. To get over the old feeling that people would deny me and find me needy. That scared child has grown up and can claim her place in the world. Yeah for me!
Listening to my favorite music I came to John Barry's score for Lion in Winter, the song Eleanor's arrival at Chinon. If you ever get a chance to see this mo
vie, do! There are two versions, watch the old one with Peter O'Toole as Henry I I and Katherine Hepburn as Eleanor. Here you have the original disfunctional family. But what a woman to admire. Duchess of Acquitane in her own right she married the king of France and had two children with him. They divorced and she married the duke of Normandy many years her junior. Henry Plantaganet took the english throne on king stephen's death. He was the s
on of a strong mother as well. His mother Maud fought Stephen for the crown but then England was not read for a queen yet. Eleanor gave him many sons of which three would become king. Henry was co-ruler with his father but died young. Richard would only rule 10 years and not spend much of it in England. John, well John ruled for a while and was not so bad a king as many people think. But he was a plantaganet, ruthless. He as also Edward's grandfather. Oh if you decide to watch Lion in wint
er. Watch Becket first. Peter O'Toole plays the same role, Henry. But this movie is about Henry's relationship with his cancelor and later archbishop of Canterbury, Thomas Becket. Another fascinating story and a fascinating man, played very well by Richard Burton. It is finally out on DVD. This afternoon I am prob going to watch either Becket or Lion in Winter. or something completely different I am going to let my mood decide. Not too much planning. :)Oh before going to sleep I did read some yesterday evening. Finished Keri Arthur and my inner jury is still out on it. I did like the story and kept reading but the characters did not completely grab me and that is what I like in a book. The story was good and fastpaced and more or less open-ended. So I think I will keep going, at least one more book. Sometimes a series only really grabs me at the second book. Like Kresley Cole and I am starting the third one of that series this afternoon or evening.
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