Back on track!
I did what I said I would do today. I worked on the practice again. For the last couple of weeks I seemed paralized with doubt, fear and tiredness. I doubted everything about myself and as a result no work left my hands. But the last two weeks I have had some serious talks with myself and we are slowly getting back on track. The fear and doubt are still there but the small poem below has helped enormously. It is so true, at least for me.
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerfull beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented,
Fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be?
By marianne Williamson. Used by Nelson Mandela during is inaugural adress in 1994
So here is the plan for the next two months. And again not set in stone, change is important to me and breaking rules. also I will have my intervision question for school on this subject next friday evening and that may bring new insights.[I will keep you posted about that here]
The next two months I would like to finish my treatment plans. I have finished the books I got ideas from, now a whole pile of paper with lose ideas and handouts is left. They will be organized by the end of december and I w
ill have stuctured the 50+ pages I have now. Now they are all lose ideas without much coherence.
Then in januari emails will go out to friends asking them if they know people in their circle who might want counseling/coaching. I will make clear that I will do this as a starting therapist who wants to practice before throwing myself down the deep end. I
will do this for free or for a very small fee. That feels safer for me. During those first months with the website ready I will submit that to search engines and local directories and then I will slowly seemlessly go from counseling as a student to doing it for real and making money from it. Yes it still scares the shit out of me. But do encourage me to go on. Support me, cajole me and also tell me when I need to go slower. I am sometimes too harsh a judge and sometimes too slack.
And please I love feedback here from friends or total strangers.
Today I went through 'vrouw met pit' [female with spunk] and got some good excersises out of that one. One that Suzanne did with me years ago and I always remembered because it was so effective, a real eye opener. I started a book that will last me a year to read! Affirmations for the inner child. Five years ago I would have laughed over a book like this. But again since I started using it myself it has helped me such a great deal. When something troubles me or makes me scared I will talk to my inner child and ask why she is troubled or scared. And you would be amazed at the anwsers that come out. I can comfort that part of myself and make it feel safe. It is allowed to be there, but because it is allowed to exist and feels understood and seen often it gets less or dissapears all by itself.
Right now I am going to relax for the rest of the day! Books and DVD!
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerfull beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented,
Fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be?
By marianne Williamson. Used by Nelson Mandela during is inaugural adress in 1994
So here is the plan for the next two months. And again not set in stone, change is important to me and breaking rules. also I will have my intervision question for school on this subject next friday evening and that may bring new insights.[I will keep you posted about that here]
The next two months I would like to finish my treatment plans. I have finished the books I got ideas from, now a whole pile of paper with lose ideas and handouts is left. They will be organized by the end of december and I w
ill have stuctured the 50+ pages I have now. Now they are all lose ideas without much coherence.
Then in januari emails will go out to friends asking them if they know people in their circle who might want counseling/coaching. I will make clear that I will do this as a starting therapist who wants to practice before throwing myself down the deep end. I
will do this for free or for a very small fee. That feels safer for me. During those first months with the website ready I will submit that to search engines and local directories and then I will slowly seemlessly go from counseling as a student to doing it for real and making money from it. Yes it still scares the shit out of me. But do encourage me to go on. Support me, cajole me and also tell me when I need to go slower. I am sometimes too harsh a judge and sometimes too slack.
And please I love feedback here from friends or total strangers.
Today I went through 'vrouw met pit' [female with spunk] and got some good excersises out of that one. One that Suzanne did with me years ago and I always remembered because it was so effective, a real eye opener. I started a book that will last me a year to read! Affirmations for the inner child. Five years ago I would have laughed over a book like this. But again since I started using it myself it has helped me such a great deal. When something troubles me or makes me scared I will talk to my inner child and ask why she is troubled or scared. And you would be amazed at the anwsers that come out. I can comfort that part of myself and make it feel safe. It is allowed to be there, but because it is allowed to exist and feels understood and seen often it gets less or dissapears all by itself.
Right now I am going to relax for the rest of the day! Books and DVD!
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