my journey as a civil war novel writer

I am still doing it!!!! Not planning. Just doing what I feel like from moment to moment. Do I like it...... hmmmmmm not sure. Part of me does, part of me feels weird like I should be doing homework, read books etc. I am going on a trip tomorrow and haven't even packed or put things aside to go into the bag. And that is very rare for me. I do feel proud about that to be honest. Today I spend looking around internet for christmas prezzies, I like to get the best deals and will spend hours on that. Yup dutch! This afternoon will look for some more in town. Tomorrow going to the christmas fair at castle de haar. It is said to be very nice we want to be there when it gets dark. It is a fairytale castle anyway so that should be fun. Then in the evening going to Mel and Sven's in Belgium. Mel is coming to the fair! This weekend we will be going to a boardgame fair there. That is my other addiction next to books, boardgames! A very nice hobby because it is something you do with a grou

I think I have made the decision about the lost files. It was touch, but I think I will go with the middle way. Clean what I have up a bit, pretty it up just a touch and then start! In january I want to ask friends if they know people who would like counseling/coaching knowing that I am only just starting out and of course they will get it at a discount rate. So I don't have to be perfect and can learn without feeling guilty about not being perfect. Also looking into more volunteer work to get experience. The promised reviews. Finished The Founding by Cynthia Harrod Eagles. I just found out it is the first volume of about thirty!!!! And the family sage spans many centuries. I picked this one up because it takes place around the wars of the roses time, one of my favorite time periods. It was written in 1980, makes sense if there are 30 books following. I liked it but I am not wild about it. There were too many characters in the book, about three generations. The action moved a bit t

I don't know what to feel. Because of the painkillers [I think] I felt completely hyper today, so much energy that I needed to create, create and be busy!!!!!!! I had nearly finished the treatment plans and done an hour's work earlier. I don't know what I did wrong but somehow I saved the 4 new pages as the document instead of all 77 pages. What is worse I also backed it up to my external HD this way. I have now lost what I have been working on the last 6 weeks in one go. [I have the rough draft so the work is not gone that bleep.] But I had put things in my own words, organised it etc so it looked perfect. Yeah I know. I am devestated. And before saturday I would only be devastated. But at the studyday it came up that i over prepare. So right now I am not sure what I will do. Take a deep breath and start over and get completely stressed as I will never make my deadline of the 15th of december. Reorganize what I have a little bit but not do all the work again. Leave it like

Yesterday was not a good day painwise. I am still in a lot of trouble over the dentist visit. Yesterday was really bad, I could barely hold anything and could not write at all. Not good timing on a study day and I started there by dropping my tea cup breaking it in pieces and crying about it. Pfffffff. Well I went home early because I was doped on painkilles and they were not doing much good anymore. Had another good cry at home and feeling unbalanced and sorry for myself. I d id not fee l focussed enough to grab a good book so selected a weepy movie. Braveheart! luckily I can still watch it and enjoy it despite not liking Mel Gibson much anymore for his views. Usually when this happens to me with an actor I cannot watch the movies anymore either. So I am glad I can still see this one as it is a good movie. Not historically correct at all, William Wallace did not look like a pict and the relationship in the movie does not do justice to Robert the Bruce. I do love the depiction of Edw

I am a bit of a klutz. I had ordered and airbed without an inbuild pump because I am prob going camping next year. And those nasty tents don't have any electricity. Don't even get me started on them having no sanitary facilities. I am NOT a camping girl, but it will be for a good cause, will tell you more abou t tht at another time. Back to the airbed. I was going to pump it and see if it was intact. Now I did happen to find a very old pump. Of course it did not fit. By the time I fo und that out I had pushed it through the hole in the bed and it was stuck. Groan, in getting it out I broke the seal of the airbed. It still works, kinda... took me nearly half an hour to get enough air into it. But the seal that slows the flow of air when you want to close it broke off so that is a real bummer. I have to practice in being very fast in closing it to keep some air in it. Sigh. Last night I was watching the Dr. Phil show and the man really managed to piss me off s everely. Now I am

Tomorrow is dentist day, the first of three actually. I need crowns. {I hope that is the engli sh translation it is kronen in dutch} It will take three appointments, no idea what they are going to do. I only know that tomorrow will last about 90 minutes and I need to keep my mouth wide open all the time. Now that is the part I am not looking forward to. Going to the dentist is not my biggest hobby and keeping my mouth open that long is agony. The trouble with my muscl es starts in my neck and shoulder muscles and it can either go to my arms and hands, as it does most of the time but it can go to my head as well and give me terrible headaches. Well I can take it easy thursday and friday. But I have to be fit for studyday on saturday. Yesterday I watched the latest Sharpe: Sharpe's peril. It is really, really great, I watched both episodes in one go. It has the old action, a good story an d believable characters. I am so glad that Sean Bean is still willing to do them. It is the se

First I would like feedback on this post!!! I did it!!!! This morning I went onto the motorway near my home in my own car for the first time in over ten years. I asked my dad to come along but he didn't even have to help. Well it was quiet but still. :) N ow the trick will be to try at slightly busier times. That said quiet times here are still not empty roads. I like in one of the most densy populated parts of the country and probably of Europe so there are always cars on the road. the part I would like feedback on is: How do you other people who hav e driven for years sit in a car. I find that I am hyper focussed on everything around me. Not when I drive in town and normal roads then I can relax but on the motorway I am very vigilant. Today for example there was a car in the dead corner of my car. I had seen it in the mirrors so I knew it was there and I waited before it had overtaken me before going to the other lane. But I keep thinking, you might have missed it, you might hav